Over the last couple of weeks, I’ve been wrestling with the idea of drowning. I’m struggling with keeping my head above water. Even though I’m sleeping pretty well, I still feel exhausted. Everything in me wants to get out of the water. I want to feel ‘safe’ again. But I know that I need to learn to swim. Recently, I’ve been sensing that there are things I need to do in order to learn to swim.
During my journey of leaving my job and going back, one of the most important things I learned was to focus on taking one thing at a time – to just take a step without trying to figure out what it means or how it’s going to get me to my destination. I learned that I need to enjoy the journey. I realize that I’ve forgotten that recently.
God is asking me to take one thing at a time – to trust Him, and see what happens. I’ve been sensing the need to get away for a little while. Work is crazy right now, and I’ve got a pretty tight budget, but I’m trying to work in a short getaway to spend some time just listening and following – and getting to know His daughter. It’s the first step in learning to swim.